Taffy Brodesser-Akner's first-person piece in the Los Angeles Times today about her impending birth is a candid, affecting counterpoint to a symposium the National Institutes of Health held last month in Washington, D.C.
With her first baby, born 2 1/2 years ago, Brodesser-Akner endured an emergency Caesarean section after 29 hours of labor, she writes. The experience left her traumatized. Now in the early weeks of her third trimester, waiting to deliver her second child, she is hoping for a vaginal birth after Caesarean, or VBAC.
The VBAC has been the subject of a lot of discussion lately. The NIH held a three-day conference on the topic that encouraged supporters of the VBAC -- and there are many -- by recommending that the VBAC be a more readily available option than it has been in the past.
In her essay, Brodesser-Akner writes, "I agree that women should have the right to try for a VBAC; I'm just not sure if they should try for one. Rather, I'm not sure if I should."
Of women who want a VBAC in a particular pregnancy, she writes, "the more honest and maybe the more uncomfortable way to say it, is that they want to give it a shot. They want a TOLAC, a trial of labor after a C-section."
Only 60 to 80 percent of women who attempt a VBAC actually get to have that vaginal delivery, Brodesser-Akner writes; the remaining women wind up getting another C-section. And perhaps 1 percent will have a uterine rupture (with a previous low transverse uterine incision, the most favorable for a VBAC; other types of incisions carry more risk), which can threaten the lives of both mother and child.
"When a uterus ruptures...things go wrong fast — and they go wrong big," she writes, adding that a high-risk obstetrician told her that one-quarter of those ruptures end in hysterectomies, brain damage and/or the baby's death.
"As that doctor said to me, 'The risk may be low, but it's 100% when it's happening to you,' she writes.
Brodesser-Akner is right. Every pregnancy is different, and I can assure you from experience that when you find yourself living out that small, shocking statistic, it is 100 percent real. And I am one of the lucky ones.
But why couldn't she be in that 60 to 80 percent of women who have the "normal" birth experience she says she desires? And if she births in a hospital with capable OB/GYNs who perform a good number of Caesareans -- and 24-hour anesthesiology coverage -- she should have the backup she requires in case of an emergency. That shouldn't be hard to find in Los Angeles.
Any birth can take a turn toward the worst-case scenario, and it's impossible to fully predict which ones actually will do so. It is probably all too easy for a woman who had a wretched experience during her last birth to imagine all the things that could go wrong.
But the numbers are with mothers in general; that is, the odds are in their favor. The fact that the pendulum might be swinging back toward a trial of labor in some challenging situations is, I think, a good thing. And I am by no means alone.
I would tell Brodesser-Akner what I tell my own daughters, not only about childbirth but about life in general: Don't let your fears rule your life. Don't be foolhardy, but don't think the cosmos is out to get you, either. I know it's a cliche, but it's true: The most dangerous thing many of us will ever do is ride around in cars (or worse yet, on bikes), and nobody seems to spend much time worrying about that.
Whatever she decides, I hope Brodesser-Akner has a beautiful birth story to tell this time. It should be one of the best days of her life.
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